Well, what can I say? I got screwed.

The IRS denied my claim for innocent spouse relief.
It doesn't matter that it is his debt.
It doesn't matter that all money they have received has come from my returns and my wages.
It doesn't matter that it is mostly for his unpaid social security tax.
It just doesn't matter.
The gal actually said to me, 'I don't see him being responsible for anything.' so basically, they don't believe he will start now and pay his debt, so I have to.  Um, yeah.
It doesn't matter that I have been an upstanding citizen regarding my taxes since I was 15.
It doesn't matter that my life has gone upside down.  She actually asked me, "soooo, in 2009 you realized there was a big problem, and you are just now in 2012 divorced?"  Like, 'what took you so long, lady?'
She asked me, "So, in 2009 you realize there is a problem.  In April of 2010 when you filed your tax returns for 2009, knowing there was a debt, why did you file a joint tax return?"  I was silent. She asked, "do you understand?"  I said,"Yes, well... that is a bold thought.  It didn't occur to me not to...I mean, he was my husband.  I honestly didn't realize that I could do that."
She told me that being divorced now was in my favor.
She told me that my financial situation, according to my budget, where as it was tight, things like Pets and Tithing are nice, but not necessary expenditures- that money could be a payment to them.  So my financial situation was not in my favor.  She sees no hardship.
She said that the reasonable expectation of my ex actually paying was not in my favor.
That my compliance was in my favor, whatever that means.
That I wasn't physically abused, and my mental and physical state where fine, so there is no favor there.
Now all I can do it wait to see what the letter of determination says.  What they say I should owe and the payments.  Every dime they have taken from me so far is just 'interest on the first couple of years'  oye.

God has a plan of redemption for me.
He has a plan to prosper me and NOT to harm me.
He loves me.  His love is no less because this awful thing has happened.  He grieves with me at the pain, loss, and struggle.
I praise Him.
I praise Him because He is worthy of praise.
I praise Him because He has never left me, or forsaken me, and He will not now.
I praise Him because He is bigger than the IRS.
I praise Him.  I bought chocolate cake and strawberries in celebration of His love for me.
I cannot see how any of this is going to work out.  But, truthfully...the how is kinda none of my business. My business is to focus on Him, to Trust, and to allow the healing to begin.  Oh, the healing.  I long for it.  It will come, because the One who loves me is faithful and true.
Faithful and True.